ARGH! I fvcking cant sleep!
my neck feel so darn stiff, back so darnn pain,
ankle/leg hurts like darnit! and a damn bad headache.
& there's damn netball tmr.
Why? Why me? Why is this happening?
This just svckz like shyt!!

I feel so life-less. Im so out of energy..
I mean, seriously, I feel effing weak.
Plus, NETBALL, Im just so fcuking dead.
I really feel like dying now, everything just sucks now.
FML! should i or should i not? will i regret?

hmms, slept @ 5am yesterday, watch 2012 till 4.30..
ohwell, i saw your post and i get it, u dont want me as a friend?
fine then, but i wont give up so easily. Im sorry.

Foolish me.

heyyo,
timecheck-2.32am, sunday,29nov09.
currently chatting with huzyerr , blogging & watching 2012 with mum& brother, the three of us squeezing on my Q/K size bed. -.-"! hmms, friday, didnt have training as it was a public holiday, hari raya haji(: so yea, woke up late, watch tv, use laptop, @ bout 7, went to maxine house, then went swimming @ 8plus9 with maxine lil' sisters. then ate mcdonal for dinner and left for home alone @ 11plus, reached home, msgmsgmsg, and chatted on phone.. yesterday, woke up late too, use comp, watch tv, msg, eat dinner , talk on phone, then use laptop, chatt with friends on msn, and facebook, till now, chatting with huzyerr only.. ohwell, gonnna watch my 2012 now! BYE! andand, Sweetdreams peeeps!

110th post(:

hello people who read my bloggy, hmms, yesterday was just purely nothing much, had netball, then after netball, went to simpang to eat with mandeep, regine, panda & firdaus. after eating, bused 10 with the same people. then alighted @ same stop, then me and mandeep went to mandeep mum shop, then walked over to parkway, walked around parkway, funfunfun(: then walked back to mandeep mum shop, went to eat then.. then off we went home, took same bus, then went home.. nothing much lo.. today, woke up, bathed, prepare and off i went to meet alvin & azrami, went to bedok inter, meet azrami gf,,, then went to town, cine, go eat @ KFC, then went to see movie timing, dont have astro boy so we went off to vivo, see movie timing, bought tickets for ASTRO BOY, 4.30 timing, then went to roof, enjoy windd(: then went for movie, finished @ 6plus, walked walked around then went to outdoor, enjoy more winddd then mrt-ed home @ 8. reached home @ 9plus, watched tv and TADA! im here(:

Bonding time?

Hmms, have been spending sometimes with my one&only irritating brother, louis tan(: hmmms, on Friday, stayed @ home till around 7plus, then brother came home then followed him to town, ate bbk for dinner first, met maxine then follow bro find his friends then walk walk around town uh. Yesterday, Woke up @ 6, slept again, woke up @ 10, slept, 12 woke up again, then go bro room,he still sleeping so i continue sleeping uh, woke up @ 1 plus, go bro room, maxine reached my home already, then bath, prepare and went to maxine house, play with her sisters and brother, then bused 5 to town, went to lido, bought movie tickets for Christmas carol, 3D, 7.15movie, brother treated me, then walked over to wheellock place then saw bro friend, then went to bbk to eat again.. then later bro and maxine friend came to find us, then got leftover food, gave bro punk friends.. then went for the movie,AWESOME(Y)! then after movie, go find brother friends, then walked underpass to ION, go inside the huge christmas tree:D then trained back home then maxine and her sis came over too, they played with my doggy, cutteeee:D then later i ate ice creammmm, WOOHOO! so yeaa.. that pretty much what happened the past 2 days.. Today, woke up latee cause yesterday slept latee too. then use laptop, watch tv and help my mama cook lasagne(: then here I am blogging,
OhWell, thanks hubbyyy Weilinn, Chiobu Jialin, Marilyn, Jonathan, Pinchyi, Guorui & few more for trying to cheer me up and for caring:D, You all rocks(: but i'll be fine i guess. just having a rough time as lots of things have been happening..

Why? Why Me?

heyyo people.. my mood are like craps still.. hmm, todayy, did nothing much.. woke up, used laptop, watch tv, talk on phone, used laptop, watch tv, buy bbt with sis, watch tv, eat dinner and watch tv and here i am.. okay,
I really do not know whats happening with me,
I just seriously sucks, dont I?
Im a lousy friend to everyone, a lousy sis to my siblings, lousy daughter & a lousy ^^. Why is it everytime i try to do something, it'll end up like craps, everytime i try something for a change, i'll suck @ it.. My effing attitude sucks, Im just argggghh!
Im Sorry, real Sorry.
Bye!

We got thrash!

OhOhOkay, yesterday was really bad. slept with 2 swollen eyes eh... i wish i could have someone to call to talk to with yesterday night but there's was no one. , cause i was seriously effing unhappy, i felt like dying yesterday manxz, seriously.. damnit bad night..okay, i doubt things are really fine, there's still be bad stuffs coming up. didnt really sleep well either, got imsomia uh.. hmms, then woke up, prepare, went to buy food, bring to school then waited for mich and mandeep for goddamnit 30mins! bored to death, therefore mood more like crapps. then more & more things just have to get on my nerve, even you girl -.-, im seriously in a bad mood since yesterday night. i seriously wanted to shout @ some girls so not serious and some so uncommitted, how do you girls expect to win with this kinda of attitude? i mean, common eh' we have a match today yet, this girl went to mediacorp bailing on the team.. sighhhhh, forget it.. so, we got thrash by butik butok. we scored less then 5 and they scored more then 30 i think. their sec 1s are POWER! even better then their senior manxz! what to do? they super hardworking while we super slacking :D hahahhah. okayokay, my mood isnt every awesome nor is it good yet.. so BYEBYE!

I Suck, I know.

okay, my title say it all, I SUCK & i know it. dont need you to say it to me, hmmm, skipped netball today, @ 2plus3, went to meet mandeep, regine,firdaus and panda @ renadol to eat lunch. then after eating, followed to mandeep to bedok food centre to eat, then went to mandeep house, go gym, lost some weight i think, HAHAHH, then reached home, rest awhile, eat dinner and went to tam ikea, shopped @ ikea, courts and giant lorh. then reached home @ 12plus, and then showered and here i am. okay, my day was okay, but during the night, it SUCKS!, went all the way to tamp with mum, and she wont buy me anything, making me all so grumppyy, then more&more things make my night worst, sigh,,,, okay,
^^, im sorry, for everything, i must really suck, i know, sorry.
I suck @ everything. @ being a friend the most, im sorry to everyone. im just a useless dumbass bitch. sorry everyone, bye..

Grats to me cousins :D

heyhey, so let me talk bout yesterday, woke up 7am, prepare and all, 7.40am, left house, went to buy drink and sweet first, walk to grace blk, met huilian then wait for becky,thenn go to becky aunt sch place... hmms, ate breakfast first before going to the school, huilian do the make up first, her theme was scar or vampire, so she got scar, ohyea, me, huilian, becky and haining was the aunt model btw :D LOL! then after huilian was me, heard from the rest that i took 2hours!! then after the make up need go take photo, then blahblahblah, after i finished, haining went in and do her make up, she took quite long too. then me, huilian and becky went to eat first cause we were bored.. then later becky go do her make up, me and huilian follow haining to eat.. then after becky finish her make up, we all left for home, me, becky and her aunt took a cab, huilian and haining took another cab to bedok inter.. then i borrowed becky dress for my cousin wedding. then later reached home, relax awhile then later prepare, changed into the dress, touch up on my make up and hair then take pictures :D then after that left home @ bout 7, cabbed all the way to liang court for the wedding dinner, took pictures and more pitures!, talk to cousins and aunts and granny. then then the MC for the wedding is suckish! no offence ah, but he got no potential as a MC, no energy, all this things ah.. then the dinner started, the food was from 'humble house' menue, cause the dinner was suppose to be 2 humble house, just because mr obama came, humble house was close. then the chef wwas sam leong :D the food quite yummy! hahahah.. more to western style food then chinese.. then after the wedding was 11plus, then cabbed home, reached home @bout 11plus12.. then reached home, took a little more photos :D then hmms, wash off the make up, then undo my hair then showered and talk on phone, slept @ 2plus and woke up damnit late today :D! okayokay, today was nothing much, just now @ 6plus, went to meet ^^ then went to help brother buy drinks and here i am. watching tv, posting/using lappy and eating my dinner!, maggi mee:D HAHAH! okayokay, i msg him to ask if he;s free, but no reply ): haiiyooo, what to do leh? hope he reply.. hmm, okayokay, BYE! I wanna meet my COOlretardpartner!, i miss us being retard together :'(!

Sorryy~!

Hmmm, i stopped searching for opitcal illusion pictures already :) today, woke up @ 11, thats why i didnt reply Your msg, im really very sorry, i replied it as soon as i saw it..but it seems like you still had fun though.. im really sorry.. i promise next time k? then prepare prepare, used comp for like a short 10mins, when to schoool, went for netball, today training didnt rocks larh, its lousy, boring, T.I.R.I.N.G! hahahahah. then went to bedok food court to eat, after eat, rush to becky house, took bus 14, alighted @ temasek sec, then becky mum came to fetch me, went to the house and start the thingythingy, waseh, tmr morning need to wake up damn early to go becky house and help the aunt. hahahah! thenthen, when home @ bout 5plus, bought food to eat, then use laptop, :D then mum called and i went to meet her @ bedok inter, bought my shoe for the wedding tmr :D wooots, i lovee my new shoe, heels :D but i haven found a dress to match it D:! but nevermind!, hmmm, then reached home @ 9plus, then reach home watch tv and here i am :D Muahahahahah! okayokay, byeeee

illusionnnn!

HEYHEY, TRY & SEE THROUGH THE PICTURES, TELL ME WHT U SEE IN EACH PHOTO, ALL ARE PRETTY EASY I GUESS. TAG ME WHT U SEE!

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YOYOH! I suddenly got interest in Illusion pictures :D hahahhahaha! Shall upload the pictures i found on the internet :D its very COOOOOOOOOLLL! hhahhahaha. today! went for training,, pretty funnn, was hypering with my boyfriend, MANDEEP! hahahhaaha.(inside joke)! hahahhahah. then i think my stamina getting better or so... talked with regine bout some stuff. ahemahem eh... hahahhahaha. then nowadays, training quite easy ah.. can run more rounds without stopping le me [:D YAY! then coach bought donuts, he treat us ah. so goood eh, first time ah,.. then sec 1 got the the donuts first, cause we got release earlier, then after training, took donut, makan, then went to cold storage with usual mich and mandeep, ate chessy pie, was effing hungry! didnt really eat the whole day mah..hhahahaha. then hmmmm..... went home after eating and chatting uh... then reach home, showered and use comp :D and here i am :) hahahhahaha! okayokay, shall upload the pictures :D

Yesterday madness :O

hmmmms, woke up @ 10.30, prepare, went down to help sis buy bbt then change, took money from mummy and left the house, took 31 then walk underpass to ecp, while going there, msgmsgmsg :D then walked to mac, saw dana, natalie, xinkai, elizabeth, celine and alicia there only -.-' then waited for regine to come, she came then me and her talk craps larh, then fizah, fong, panda, shihui came :D! then moved to a bigger table. bought food and eat, went to rent bike, 6 bucks for 3 hours. then cycle to skate park, went to the beach, @ the rock there.. sat there, talktalk, listen music, hear them sing, played with water with dearest fizahhh and shiihuiii! then went to change into dry clothing, and @ around 2.30plus, cycled bacck alone, otw, saw firdaus and yudi, yudi was injured:0 then just talk abit and went off, returned bike, took back my ez-link card and offf i go,, walked underpass back to bus stop, took bus to bedok inter adn changed bus, walked to bgps, went in, saw ailing and jul. then ''emo'' a bit and went to classroom watch vids, anlaysis the videos :D then went to play match, played bare footed, evil mr ang disiao me :( then playplayplay, so darn happy playing, after training, went back to parkway to find shihui, then went back all the way to tamp to slack.... went to eat and century square food court and went off with them, shihui took bus home, i took mrt to pasir ris. waited for shutter bus then went to meet mum @ chalet, ate more bbq foodd :D (gonna be fat fat fat D: ) then play some random games, hmmmms, then drank some wine and cold wine :D niceeniceeniceee! then msgmsgmsgmsg too and then ate this amazingly yummy chocolate cake, delicious :D then went to gamble, played blackjack won bout 10 bucks :D while playing, was msging zanyee, kept him accompanied :S then @ around 3plus3'30am, mummy friend drove us home, then reached home @ bout 3'50 am bah.. hahhahaha. then showered, watched tvv and sleeep @ bout 4plus5am! then today woke up @ 10am plus, slept again, woke up @ 12pm plus :D! then went to wash up and here i am :D

101th post :D

heyhey. ima having a super suckish day now. my day started off well but seems like its ending pretty badly D: hmms, woke up, went to netball, funfunfunnnnnf! then went to cold storage with regine and mandeep, went to meet michaela at cold storage :D went to ronadols to eat, reserved chessy pie for wed :D yummyyummmyyy,,, saw jasper while in ronadols, chased him around. hahahhaha. then went to michaela house, chatted and left around 7.40.. reached home, talked on phone, msgmsgmsg, use lappy and here i am. seriously having a pretty lousy day, only people who know why is Ihsan & Keith.. so yeaps.... ohwell, what can i say.. was kinda looking forward to tmr, but not much now eh.... mood totally destroyedd. but im not blaming anyone but me. i must really suck manzx. i cant even be a friend to jon, who knows, i might be a pain in the neck to people.. ahhhh~! forget it, im going CRAZY~! no more happy jon, no more happy jasper, no more happy me D:, no more much trust in people, i think im gonna be crazy or sooo... argghhhh~~! BYE!

OH HEY! sorry bout my previous post. i was just having a rough day. hahahha.. so yea, yesterday, 4nov, woke up @ 7plus am, prepare and went to jog. jog abit then i walk. hahahha. then ate breakfast and then slack uh... then slack under blk, saw sis and ifa and this guy. hahhah. funnnyyyy! had funfun, laughed hell lots thanks to sis, ifa and the guy.. agagaga. then went home @ 1plus, changed and went to school. missed the bus so i walked to school. nearly late. then ran 10 rounds under hot sun. then got briefing and all, then did passing and all. played game. funfunfun! but effing tiring. hahahha okayokayt uh.... then went home. saw alvin, mamat, azrami, acap all playing @ street soccer court. ahhahahaha. then went to buy burger :D yumyum. then went home. leg didnt hurt then. slept damnit early. hahhahaha, tehn today, woke up feeling effing pain @ my leg, near butt there. hahaha. because did lunges{sp?} hahahah. then use comp, eat and watch tv. okayokay, byeee!

Firstly, im sorry to be posting this here, but im just feeling down for no reason, so just dont mind me. when i got the msg from you, saying you feel that we werent close like before anyway, that you feel awkward, i felt so useless @ that moment. i dont know why, and i dont know when, i started becoming very emotional.. i can cry over small things, and do stuff i never did before. i can breakdown infront of my family, first, there's school life, secondary school life reeks i say. its really so suckish. no one i can truly trust. no one i can believe in. not even my teachers or close buds. there's bytochs like ******, try'na bring me down, how? by badmouthing me, making people hate me and all. its seriously sucks. i dont wanna care, but how not to? how can i not care when im lossing everything?! how can i not care when people are misunderstanding me? I really dont know what to do anymore. my confidence, self esteem, all effing gone. gone for good eh? im really sick and tired of everything. first dreads going to school, unattentive in class, whats the point of studying with no interest or attentiveness? its just bullshit i'll say. effing bullshit.. then after school, either home or CCa, netball, doesnt really sucks, but when its too much fitness training, and too little court game, it really sucks luh. forget bou netball. home, isnt home suppose to be filled with warmth and love, well, its not for me, this 'home' is so !$%&^% .. seriously, everytime i reached home, i'll just hide myself in my room.. i dont wanna face my family, i dont know how to face them.. either they ruined my day or i'll just screw it myself. sighhh.. forget it uh... things just seems so sucish today.. fcuk lah..

helloo~

HIHIHI! last post was on 31st oct, i think., anw, on 1st nov, went to vivo with alvin & arzami.. went to catch a movie but before the movie, went to eat, then walkwalk around cause movie start late.. watched coroline{sp?} but it isnt that nice.. so wasted like 13 bucks on the movie. wasted. hahahah. after the movie, went to take the train to sentosa.. funun. reached sentosa, went to skyride ticket boothh,. bought tickets,... then went up with skyride then took luge down. did it twice. funfunfun! hahahahaha. then go buy ice cream, and went home. yeaps. trained back home.. then msgmsg, use comp and nothing much.. on 2 nov, yesterday.. didnt go anywhere, stayed @ home all day round.. hmmm.. woke up, use comp, watched tv, eateat, then shower, watch more tv, and use comp.. then ate dinner, spaghetti for dinner, yumyummyyy! then watch more tv and use comp.. hahhahahah. funnnnf chatting with varian,... HAHHAHAHAH! then slept @ bout 3am. hahahahahahahah. today, woke up, msg little. then watched tvvvv and eattteattt then watched more tvv and here i am using comp... hahahhahaha.